Ah, loyalty! As if to illustrate in a more direct fashion to me how wrong I had been to write about ---- when we had our problems (though I'd already come to realise that), I found out last night that my former friend ---- (this is a different person, by the way!!), after we had a huge text-fight on Monday night, has been telling everybody at my old job, including my former manager, what a psychotic, evil, destructive bastard I am, while also portraying my intentions in our erstwhile and entirely platonic friendship in a highly inaccurate light. Which would be bad enough, but I still work for the same company, though I've moved to another branch of the business. Hmm. I hope people take what they hear with a block of salt. I feel very self-righteously wounded about it, to tell you all the truth, but since I have done worse in the recent past, and on the internet of all places, and with a lover rather than a friend (which is an even worse violation), I can't really complain.
Perhaps my karmic debt in the matter of violated loyalty is repaid now?
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Well, yes, I told people I know face to face hardly anything about my ex when we broke up, even though I probably said too much in the more anonymous internet. Plus I was trying to understand something rather than reacting on a wave of anger to an argument and deliberately setting out to screw her reputation.
Also when I discuss my relationships (and in the case of the latter woman) friendships and how they go wrong, I try to be as honest as possible about my part in it. I know how unreasonable and selfish and obsessive I can be. She has portrayed herself as a victim of my wild mood swings and destructive tongue and said nothing at all about what she might have done to inspire my excesses (and you notice I say "inspire" rather than "justify"). I wouldn't want to be permanently pitied as someone who is done to rather than someone who does.
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